The ways ..the different~the choice the hopes.. the disappointed~

Guess I'd rather hurt than feel nothing at all~

That day i stay back~

I `m tired so i gone out from library and
walked along the corridor~
i reach the end of the corridor~
that is face to the canteen~

i looked down from 3rd floor~
i saw
the way at the canteen~...
beside the canteen have a pusat cuaca.....

the have the  two side way...
at  that time ...
i `m thinking~~

At first~
the two way are not join~
they are two different way~..
but if walk along to that..
we will realise that..
it can be join..and go to the same way~
different~but same~


Next,
when i look and think deeply...
the way not only there~`~
the 2 different way~
if  not walk along there..
2 different..
they  will different also~~
the fact is "different"........

In our life~
different will be same way at the same time~depends on...
what u choose  and how u choose it
in ur life~


2 different~will ever  different also~
what u are ..that is it~~
it not everyone fault~
only ... the fact~~
will it change~??
i don`t know~```

.........
but i know~
we have a choice~

Everytime i look out phenomena...
that have many things we won't know~
we will get what ~ we also don't know!
hence our feeling are~~~~
very confuse~~
Many feelings... I hurt before..
I alone~
I try to secrete and keep it in my mind~
I don't want make anyone sad ..
I hope they will happy everytime~

Before that i wanna forget..
i wanna to stop the feeling~
i`m actually upset and i feel apart of my life is gone~
but i try that all also~
I realise~and i don't want to lie myself~

Sometime~
when u hope fully want a thing...
that will not come to you~
but in a contrary~
when we go away~
when we leave~
when we not hope~
it will come with a surprise~
~~~

I scare for hope anythingss~
I knOw~
when i really hope ...
more disappointed i will get!

deep and deep i suck in~
more and more hurt..i get~

something is not belong to you~
that `s not yours~
Not suitable y not let it go ?

two  different is different~
although it will be the same...

Impossible~~ will hard to be posibble~

It will make the problem~

GAME OVER~.............

I don't know i need that feeling again or not..

but i will try not to lie myself again and again~...........

MAYBE NOT NEED YOU NOW

BUT..

NEED YOU IN THE OTHER SECOND~
OR
Maybe that`s not for me。。

Need to go~but not stay~
Need to think but not do`~
I think that's enough~~
if not more hurt i will get~

Miss you finally~

you make me sad make me happy...
do you know ~ all the things u do ~
i believe~ ...i get it~ ...
but many things you won't know~...forever....
u won't know~~~.....
you make me hurt.... i feel hurt ~~  every year~~
y? why i keep on believe that~ believe somethings that will not happen~
believe u may...do that....
still believe on you~ you are the guy that i believe the most......
even you are not my someone~


"Try to remember all these years

We shared the love we shared the tears
Thought that forever it would be"....

even you hurt me~ i still wait...
am i stupid....even know that is impossible still keep on do that....


you won't know i wait you for long year...
you won't know i miss you everyday..
you won't know i wait you for wishing me
     "HAPPY BIRTHDAY"

i don't know...why...is that wishing is difficult??????????

"You played with my heart

You played with my mind
But I miss you finally

Right from the start
My love made me blind

But I miss you finally "

every year....i hope fully that u will wishing me....

do you know...
every year... 12a.m.began my birth...i look on my phone...
thinking about you...
dreaming somethings surprise will appear~
but you don't know...
every year.. until end of my birth...i still wait~
sometimes i will tell myself .. that you are busy..
....I lie myself actually~
i know.. you are not remember...

Still dream of days when we were one..

i don't know how to control...

my heart pain actually....

somehow..

i won't tell you....

these year....

i keep on asking..
am i love you..? really love??
deserve?
keep on thinking about you... 

i meet you...until now...
hmm~~~many years.. many memory...in my mind`~~
although ...
we never ever together...
i know...
i know..
you never ever love me also...
never cares what is going on ~
i know..you may cares someone now~!
for me..
not important for you also...

you may not know what am i feel now~

you may not know you are the one .. make me sad and sad...

disappointed about you...

i'm tired....

but........

I......

Miss you Finally~

miss you now??
the answer****

she is more pretty than I...
she is more better than I...
I 'm not go to hate anyone..
and I ' m not  come to jealous with her...

NOW I NEED TO GO AWAY~ ~ ~
MY HEART WILL GO ...
I WILL STOP IT~ ~...
YOU WON'T KNOW FOEREVER///.....
I CAN... I WILL....
Enough with that ~~
END~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
you are my friend forever~

Baby it's hard to understand

Now that you're gone
We reached the end




Now I need someone cares~ ~
Need ""YOU"" Now....
who will caress??
I really hope i can act on another love story...
with another character.....
...^^...

huh....but not easy to fall in love to a person~
not easy to forget a person actually.....

who will??
hope that :
my wish ...my hope....
will come true ~ ~

LOVE TOGETHER....
IS GET READY TO A NEW LOVE STORY  ..

I need somebody to love

Dun know how to express it~

Actually....

Before i dun know~
I do every things actually for wat?
Now ..I know that...
everythings that are over...
Never use!~...
All that u will not know....

......

Now...i want change iT .....
I dun want that anymore~!
 Past it!!
Even now i need~
I need somethingsss~
that is....
have a good result...
can I??//

Need someone....
mAybe...
have someone give me some support~!

......
but then...

I know this is difficult~
who will?/?
no one.........


I need someone care me~
I need someone take care me~
When I do any mistake one's will help me~
When I unhappy one`s will lend me ears!~
Accompany me...dun leave me alone~


              Can I get that???????/???


                  Who can understand me!~


                          This is that things i Really want~...
                                                                        
                                  I know THIS will not come true!~



ALONE ............
I DUN WANT..............

Need you most ....do realise???

who cares me????????
felling unwell !!! very uncomfortable!
i`m all alone and
 i need u now~ ...........

who.....can
give me some support!!!
give me what u can~...
can`t you?

i`m lose.....i don`t know how!!~
i really need u know!~

i know you will not appear when i need~
i need someone cares~it is very difficult~no one will cares!!!
why.................................................................................
i don`t know at all........i scare!!!!
what should i do~  i shall hard work correct??
i should change my life~
to become another Kelly Lam..........

I do  not know about love~ I think this is complicated 4 me to understand again!
Somehow...I want my english level will be more higher~increase and increase~!!
i hope dreams come through!