Learning day 2...

I bought a book on Wednesday...
^ ^
so strange right??
hahah..
coz reading is not my hobby ..
and..
want me to read wor...
huhu..
no possible...
i will say..NO WAY...!

but now??haha...
different...
I look for some motivation book...
I know...i need to read more about this....

the title is..
< Seven Things I Learned from Suffering >

this is a chinese book...
when i read....
huh...i cry suddenly...
so bitter...
the writter suffer like that stil survive..
how about me now>>???

juz a small matter??
want to give up ar???
 No Need actually!!

what ever happen..
let it be...past it!
then it will become nothing...
juz wait...
it is need some time...

I feel sad this week..
because i feel a lose a friend...
 Maybe for he a friend...
i 'm not important at all...

like a stranger !!
it was so sad and make me feel
he hate me....

how to say???
is  he change?/??
is  he still the guy that i know before??

my sister told me...
" it is hard to become a friend anymore...."
 >> then ??? what to be ????
>> stranger ?? pretent to be a stranger???

haizzzzzzzzzzz
aizzz
............
what can i do?????

When i look in throughly about life..

COMUNICATE
yup....
this is important for a people in sosial...
if lact of comunicate...
no one will know what u thinking...
no one want to friend with u..
and they may feel u are the person
who is not friendly ~ ~

In life is not bored....
will be colourful!~

when u suffer...
juz learn something from suffering...
try to solve...
be happy and try to comunicate with other...
understand urself...
make ur life full of hope...
don't be sad when u lose hope....
juz end the sad....
let the good recover ur sadness...

this all things will give u power ...
living is for happy...
not for hate or sad...

THIS IS TRUTH...

why not let the sadness ,
to understand urself??
to find other happiness??
don't close urself in the suffer...

 why we need suffer???
suffering for what???

I will ask before...
" why before we can be together happily,
and now...be friend will be sad???
am i nasty??? "

this kind of lose hope question i asked
....
i also human, i also live in the same world...
who will no trouble???
who will not suffer>>???
Happy or sad not because of
the matter././//
it was because of our own view....

When u happy??
When  u sad ???
REMEMBER???
many ppl said...
" I 'm not happy " " I 'm sad "
...
Me too ..i will said like that sometime...
but...
when u happy , will u said
" I ' m Happy "

= =
i think not many of us will said like that...
maybe happy u will only laugh...
but why??
coz we will think not enough happy with this...
we need more happy...

I remember the happiness,
I also remember the sadness...
but i will look sad also ...

see ... human is like that....
already have this , but we want more....

The lesson is,
although suffer, try to don't be sad ,
be smart , convert ur sadness into
"a power " to lead u into a SUCCESS LIFE...

Learning day 1...

What i need to do is........
aim again...

Today..
i went to Popular...
i saw and read the book...
Motivation Book...
is was so interesting...

i love this kind of book....
i will enjoy by reading this kind of book...
finally feel not bad to read...

today i get many idea to be happy...
and to reduce my sadness in my eyes..
my pain in my heart...
minimize it..

True and Really...

" when you laugh,
 the word must be laugh with you..."


that is right...
when i'm sad...
i really can't pretend to be happy....
at that time...when i laugh...
huh...pain till cry...~
it was so heart broken!

but ...what i need to do..and 
must understand what situation and
where i'm.??.

that is important to find back ourself...
but remember..
we need to do it by ourself...
totally..no one can help...

踏出自我~ 找回自己....
我就是我~ ~

人生如梦，岁月无情。蓦然回首，才发现人活着是一种心情。

穷也好，富也好，得也好，失也好。

一切都是过眼云烟。想想，

不管昨天、今天、明天，能豁然开朗就是美好的一天。

不管亲情、友情、爱情，能永远珍惜就是好心情。

记得有一个经典短信这样写着：

曾经拥有的不要忘记；

已经得到的更加珍惜；

属于自己的不要放弃；

已经失去的留作回忆；

想要得到的一定要努力；

累了把心靠岸；

选择了就不要后悔；

苦了才懂得满足；

痛了才享受生活；

伤了才明白坚强；

总有起风的清晨；

总有绚烂的黄昏；

总有流星的夜晚。

人生就像一张有去无回的单程车票，没有彩排，每一场都是现场直播。

把握好每次演出便是对人生最好的珍惜。

把握现在，畅享人生！

静静后....

我做对了~
我让我自己一个人静静地想...
想想...

我不是想什么重来之类,
而是在想
回忆。。
在想.....
自己是介意的吗？

介意又怎能做朋友呢？？？

到底自己是介意还是真的看得那么开吖？

在静静争扎~
我是要让自己去跨过...
越过自己！！！！


今天华语课~
唱歌...
看到两个字..

爱人  。。。。朋友


就在想了~
能当作是爱人吗？？
若有感觉，当然是....
若喜欢，能暗恋..
这两个假设....我都不要！
什么是当做？当做就是不真实！
不真实的...
是我要的吗？
100 % 不是~！
感觉....
erm...在我静静的想，
我就是要把感觉解脱！
就emo...
哎....弄到自己好像真的很串酱！

朋友....
在这刻...
这个月...
我清楚知道是朋友~
是朋友~
我也问我自己。。
朋友？定义是什么？

刚才上华语课,
知音难求，
对~ 朋友多得是...
可是这些朋友只是
比陌生人还熟悉了一些而已。。

朋友 与陌生人有分别吗？


或许可以说不同~
只是~
有距离的朋友就是陌生人了~

怕尴尬？？
会介意？？

通常这些 只有又感觉的人才在乎....

而我呢？

来个总结好了：
conclusion...

I dun mine...我不介意了。
不会想去很介意~
不会那么cool....
会再开朗些....

至于说话，变朋友而不是陌生人，
不是我一个人的事....
MK哥哥说的对，
就需在于 没有感觉情况下说话会比较好~

我的静静report...
不再搞EMO..

以后会发生什么很难讲啦...
人生好像一场戏剧.....导演就是天了~



是演员或配角....都需做好自己！~


要有责任感~剧情是不能逃避的自然规律...

静静的 2

几乎不想出声~ ~
甚至姐姐们~
我都不想 谈~

不是什么大件事~
会惯的~
我都不是那么想 说话~

不会沟通~

直到放学后~
有咯~
就有聊..

我发现 .....
和一个他不熟悉自己的人说话
会好聊些~

可能....
不用忧虑那么多吧~

我不是看不开
也不是怪谁~
真的真的有点想一个人...

是，
我是很怕寂寞、孤单...
可是~
我还想一个人静静...
什么都不想理....
做完自己的东西~


一个不出声的人
很cool...
给人的感觉也不好受的~

我开始觉得自己
是那种脱离社会的女生~

无奈？

但却...还想一个人静静~

希望不会  令别人讨厌~
我还想静下来~

姐姐们、哥、朋友们...

对不起~

静静的 1

凌晨2点半~~~
我又在想~~

不同的是
可以静静想~
因为不怕朋友们
看到我的难过又会不开心~

我想她们开心~

可是我又装不出开心~

更可笑的是
有时我想静静想，
一个人...静静的~
但却不想孤单？

这是什么啊？
好矛盾~！
很恐怖。。。
好难受？？？
有没有人理解我？？
T.T
真的不开心！

My Treasure ...My wish...

一切问题 最终  是时间问题....
一切烦恼 其实 都是 自寻烦恼......


我又自寻烦恼地去想他~ ~
还是 没有变~

我的好朋友说的对的，
“想来想去 也不是一样~
不要想啦！”


这一切我都懂得~
也很明白...
不该介入他的世界~
不能这么做~
一直都保持距离~
因为，
我觉得 是朋友的就要让他快乐~

那我又想？
其实我没想什么了~
只想 着以前的快乐~
那段...快乐回忆吧~


快乐的故事。。。。

会看过365天， 有什么人什么事
令你快乐、令你感恩？？？？？

静静想想，
有没有一件事，
让你感到一丁点的快乐，
让你会心微笑，
甚至乐上半天？？

我想 ，
一起的人生是美好的~
一起的日子是甜蜜的~
一起的快乐是我最珍惜的回忆~
那时的我懂
2 IS BETTER THAN 1
。。。。。。。。。。。。。
我孤单过，
我寂寞过，
我孤独过，
我平淡过，
我过着一个人的生活；
我喜欢过，
我爱过，
我想念过
一起过，
我珍惜过，
我关心过，
我幸福过
我开心过；
我失去过，
我哭过，
我思念过，
我成全过，
我绝望过，
我迷失过，
我明白过，
我面对过，
我知道
我很难过。


我的2010故事？
回头看，
从无到有，
我得到过，
我失去过。

失去得到...
开心年难过....
+  与 —
等于 0

我从0 开始了~ ~


我懂我需脚踏实地地走过
自己的人生道路。。

Really ...
TRUE FEELING...
I LOVE...
I TREASURE...
Really...
I HAPPY ..
I CARE ...
I SHARE....
Really...
BECAUSE OF A PAST PERSON....
He is the one...
make me happy
and give me sweet memories....

what i can do.....
i ad end up......
i ad treasure enough...
i love and love...
but i let go.....
coz of destiny....
let my destiny bring my love
to a true person.....
let his destiny to love and treasure
his life ...

My treasure and My Wish
>>> HAPPY ENDING<<<
FOR EVERYONR IN LOVE...

KELLY LAM

2011  苦~

甘愿做...喜欢受....

“甘愿做，喜欢受。”


这不是那么容易的...
也不是每个人都做到咯~

做 : 这个嘛~必须包括了
责任感，目标，认真，耐力，
不屈不饶的精神，合作，
不管多么的困难，从新开始
也无所谓,做就对了~ ~

很多事都是从 0 开始的。。
就像一张白纸，
你不去写、不去画、不开始
又何来变成一张重要的文件？

从小我们不是什么都没有嘛？
0 岁，现在呢？
得到了
爱你的家人及亲人，
一起同甘共苦的朋友，
在为你照亮的贵人，
得到健康的躯体.....
在那么好的状态中
学习....
在学习路上，
难免会遇到挫折的....
TROUBLE IS A FRIEND...
怕什么？？
坎坷的路，时间一样这么过~
学习不是从0 开始嘛？
现在怎么了？
有从学习中得到吗？
有！ 得到知识...
不同的是，多或少而已....

看....
人只要做~
或多或少都会得到的...
为何那么在乎失去？？

甘愿的做，
能得到更多
 也能失去少些~

“不要太在意失去，
应感激得到。”
这是我大姐教我的，
我也是在学习当中~ ~

IMPOSSIBLE IS NOTHING...JUST DO IT!!! ^-^

哈哈..这是刚学的~~
呼呼。。
他很可爱~ ~

不知道为什么想起他都想笑...
也能忘记伤痛~ ~
挺舒服的感觉.....
绝对不是爱咯。。
哈哈~！
很不正经叻！！！！
^ ^


受 ：受过才懂！
实在是痛的...
哭不会好的伤痛~
无助的相思....
难忘的他...

原来我是个目标明确的人...
我绝对不会去选择一些没可能的事！
我的选择，
我想过未来。。

我经常会问他~
为什么我会那么爱他？~
为什么会爱上他？~
为什么会伤得那么深？~
为什么？？为什么？

直到昨天，
无意中发现，
他的人格，品行...
可以说是 和我想要的未来对象有点像！~

我才真正明白当初我的选择~
我爱的不只是感觉！


最终怎么了？
我发现我没了那个目标。。
未来走了~
没有人想一个过？
没有真的没有！
我100 分100 不想一个人过！
可是能？
能找到那种不只爱的感觉吗？


在受这样的苦？
真的很难受的！
没人喜欢受~

可是这是必须受。。
明白嘛？
是有必要~
本来我也想不通~

如果我们把苦放在脸上~
那么在你身边的人很难过~
难道把苦放在脸上，
你就不难过？
不用受嘛？
还是要等别人同情？？

没必要同情！！
要受的始终是必须受~
接受事实吧....
我受过我懂！

在不知道未来的来临时怎样？
人生剧情变得怎样之前，
我们必须学会喜欢受，
受过最苦最苦苦苦苦的事，
那么甜甜甜也会来临！

可是要懂得 受的开心~
在受时~
开心地过，
别让朋友及关心你的人难过~

在苦中，也许会有正能量的出现.....

熬苦 并不苦...
不能熬过苦的人更苦！

 所以
甘愿做，
做些有意义的事。
喜欢受，
受了..就不苦。。

NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE...
BUT REMEMBER...
LIFE NOT IS NOT EMPTY..
LIFE CAN BE ANYTHINGS..
IF WE DO IT...
no such thing< IMPOSSIBLE>

come again~~~ how to sleep???

Oh no...why.......
why so hard to sleep????

in the bed ..
close my eye...
but ...
yer........
thinking and thinking..

aizzzzzzzz.......

must do work become
tired and tired..
then i juz can fall asleep!

OMG........
be a HK
panda jor!!

help me........i want sleep...
How to sleep????

persoalan tentang tidur lewat///////
wuwu...T.T
3 O'clock jor.....
I want do work now.....
midnight mare~ ~ ~

tired........
i can't catch up!~
i don't know what to do.....
yer.......

i lose to other way again and again......
i pretend ........
don't know how to keep it nicely.........
maybe i'm not determinated enough....

《我懂了》金沙...


我在进退的路口 我看不见了天空


我快乐吗 我也好想躲一躲 到你的胸口

我的喜悲 你的自由 就像彩虹短暂逗留

你快乐吧 你找到你的出口 你真的自由





我不爱过 就不懂寂寞


我不难过 泪又怎麽会流


爱的够重 伤的够痛


证明我爱过




幸福走过 才浮现感动


幸运的我 曾拥你的温柔


你的笑容 还有你问候


都让我心动





你喜欢过 你沉溺过 你残忍过

这一刻我都懂 我真的自由

。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。


it was deep.......
hard to use a word a sentance
to delate、 to throw away..
that is it......
i need time...........
factual..........

我不是自由~
而是被困~
心都被雨水淋得湿透了也冷了~

心心相印？
不了~ 而是心灰意冷~
我在淋雨中~ 我的笑容很苦~
希望停雨.....
真的真的不敢想了~~~
没安全感！
完全失去~ 失去自己那颗认真地心~
hmmm.......
曾经是认真都算了@@

Comfort Zone.....安全空间。

A straight way is depend on how u choose....
means when a person choose it...
may have them reason...
we must always face to the fact.....

i understand the cruel fact...
i face before..
i found that ,
accept a fact and face the fact is totally different...

i can accept the fact,
but...i am out of control in face the fact...
i lose control until i feel i lost my way....
no more mood to do others.....

this is so dangerous.....
in a whole week...
i try to comfort myself..
i try to face the fact....
try to do it better and better....
when want to end up ...
i need more and more confident....

I told myself...is ok ..
now i end.....if the 1st time i end,it maybe fail,
but i will try ..2nd time ,3rd time....
till i totally end up....

one's feeling is important....
it will be affect our life and mood too...
these days in school i really feel
despair....no way in my life...
coz i not yet get ready to face it.....
now i know facing problem is need to solve...
i must solve it by end it up.....

Actually....i no choice too....
i'm not going to choose,
but i need to agree with his choice...
the choice we choice will always have reason 1
i honor to the fact and his choice....


之前我一直逼自己，逼自己放手,
其实逼是自己的执著， 是没用的，
必须找个平衡点，
先把自己的情绪控制好~

放手并不是指一味正面乐观，
那根盲目的执著一样，
是无意义和不合理的。。

放下其实是从执著中转换一个较
乐观正面的思想、情绪和行为模式，
让自己从失效的 “安全空间” 走出来。

学会放下，就是走向转变的道路。
克服负面情绪....

I couldn't find myself

Looking around....
my way is like now..
what's going on?
the sky is start dim...slowly dark and dark....

These days...
i look at the sky...
i love dark more than bright....
Dark pretend my feeling...
when dark i no need to face the problem....
these make me seriously confuse...
i lock myself....
i'm not really...
that is not me.......
everyday i  need to face the fact...
i asked my sister to scold me....
i mustn't do that anymore....
i must find other way to solve it...
i know...
but????
what i do these two days?
i did wrongly...
totally wrong....
how to do???????
someone help me??
how to do????
don't know how to survive....

where is mine??
where is the tough and strong Kelly Lam????
i couldn't find myself.//////

All the bitter....苦的开始~

from the beganing of this year....
today..i went to a place....
everytime i'm not in mood...feel sad...
i will went there...
there is peace then other place...

A whole day in class...
I start feel bitter...
don't know why??
what actually i want??
I get lose to anywhere.....
I really feel lonely...some  sadness too...

i thought bitter will be past...
but...that is not...

BITTER is the word i may use to
represent my feeling....

I told myself before...
" that will be all right...
just continue to other new way..
bitter is ok also...
nvr mind at all....."

I comfort myself with that.....
just now...
I really can't motivate myself to do..
to be hardworking...
but at the end..what i did....
I can't ....i can't survive...
i did wrongly...
i get stuck again and again!

i already used 1 month time...
i don't want to be like that...
that is so nasty.....
today i'm not friendly to anyone...
that is not me....

A whole day.....
i can't find out what is the problem is~~
I HATE MYSELF....

although many many time i comfort myself
i have a sadness in my eye...
i have a bitter feeling in my heart...
i have a body that is not belong to me..
I'm OUT OF CONTROL

no matter how i try.....
i must control my feeling...
this will throughly affected me.....
the bitter feeling....
make my mood badly...
nothing can be done successfully...
and i feel no one can help me....

真的很难顶~ ~
感觉上很难受~
在很不清醒的状态下咯~
我好像迷失了那样~
不知所措~
更 讨厌自己~
我的心都涌着一股 “苦”的味道~
我快透不过气了~
很难受~
为何我那么不成熟？？？？
开学的第一天~
就这么苦....接下来怎么办？？
我很苦~ 我明白苦的道理, 但到头来....
还是觉得苦.........
苦...苦...苦....

I hate myself
why can't be happy?
why can't stop thinking?
why can't try to remove it?
how the next step?

I STILL IN THE WORST SITUATION...
BITTER AT ALL >>>

maybe i really really need more and more time....
to recover...is so hard~!
 sorry....