if it is need to forget...why i cant make it??

Juz now while i manage my file..
i want to clear the recycle bin..
when i saw.......
those memorable photo...
what i did??
i press delete...
but i never press enter...
i juz delate other documents...
and....
those memorable photo........
still keep in my laptop...

many things i ignore to delate...

i cant...

Message in my phone...
Photo in my laptop..
Memory in my mind...
He in front of my eyes...

These all are a part of me before....

memory...
every second before
every moment before
every day before
every words before

All is before..all is past....
i always tell myself is past
dont look back...

I care...i mind...
i cant delate!!!!
but i cant love.....
i can wait a person for a long time..
i will...if i still believe....

i dont know...
dont know now i am in what condition...
dont know how to pretend....

i dont want disturb him also....
that is not easy to put down...
no unless...

WHEN YOU LOVE,
YOU WILL KNOW;
MANY HAPPINESS YOU HAVE,
MORE HURT YOU WILL GET.

yes...that's true...
love before...
is a fairy tale......
quite nice..quite sweet....

the wound recover slowly...
while the cell is slowly in mitosis..
the hurt wont disapear but it will be cover only...

BY LEARNING PRETEND
THE HURT IS ONLY COVER..
PAIN WILL SLOWLY GONE...
HURT IS STILL THERE....

LEAD ME TO A PEACE......
I SCARE TO LOVE...

Changing of my life...

Reading is a good way to change myself...
now i juz only realize,
i also love to read.........

if a think cant change
everyday stay in a lonely mood...
bad feeling....
the pain is myself...
nobody can feel it....

Some feeling no need to tell any1..
Lonely lonely...

YOU WILL NVR BE LONELY,
IF YOU CAN ENJOY BEING ALONE....


ya..it is true...
my sis told me be4..
dont blame juz appreciate what u r having now"

enjoy a better life...

to find out myself....
i also dun know where am i actually...

juz to do the things that can make me happy?

loll...watching my favourate...
while watcing...i can laugh cry ...
no need to thinkmany things....

Today his frenz told me
his hand was hurt...
so bad ...nvr be careful..

loll........
in front of his frenz..
even though my frez i also dun know
what to do, when they say somethings about him...

caring cant show ..
the heart the feeling all should keep from them..!

no one can understand~

if i gosip tis topic with mei ling...
lloll...i dun think it can solve easily..
100 days more....
he is the 2nd person i love...

i know i cant let it down.......

DOWN...DOWN...

100 Days

Every happiness should be celebrate..
but how about the sadness....

in my memory...
still got containing the happiness...

today my sis. said
" aiyo..3 month lo..put it down la..
i know u juz keep it deeply.."

i nvr said anythings, i change topic from it..

maybe i know it is waste time to talk about it..

it is not i dun want to put down..
i keep not mean i can't think properly.
only i still try to keep..
and wait the time and feeling past...

it is nothing...
...
i dun want to forget...
is not mean i cant put it down..

the past~ in a mood to close file..

i'm not good ...
i nvr care him~
i feel back what is his feeling be4~
i think it is the worst n unhappy to be with me~

dun know y i sudden feel that
i read back my blog~

i know...
i need somebody cares
but i nvr understand he before...
i fail to fill his life colourful~


i know the past shouldn't to think...
to care..should keep it~

but i have did it wrongly~
i'm not good....
Sorry~

I shouldn't to try anymore...
**

The Only things...

why?????


so pain!!!
i cant express my feeling~~
now i want to write it here...
only i write..i can feel better~

what is that actually??
i cant put it down ??
I dun think so..
but...
is like..want to U-turn~
wanna go back that time~
NO...
is different~
how many i get the happiness,
the double pain i get~

is not love....
is miss....
different...

i cant control.
i go to his profile juz now..
that is ~
i feel different...

coz i feel to cry~
is pain in my heart~

is not i cant think it with better way
it is juz a sadness and disappointed~
but i know this is the end ad~

i think after cry and cry many times
will be all right~


Was he happy???
.........

lol...i guest he wAs ...

all things change~
in the changing of life
i learn..
i must be persist in everythings...
dun ever give up....

if i can make it simple dun think so much~
the end wont change~

i dun know changing of the ending
is good for me or not...
but i know i must only accept...

The only things cant change,
if myself nvr changes!
I must changes~

Valentine Day

what expresison i should have???
sad? emo? lonely?
happy?  enjoy?
searching ??

almost 3 months...
i have been emo ,
sad enough, cry..
feel lost..cant control..

Maybe 1st time...
and i also want to end up all this..
dun want to try...
juz keep..
to be strong..i can~

I should believe before...
but i nvr do that...
i so silly...

Many question i nvr ask
i know if i ask
the answer is 50% hurt again...
i dun know i can survive or not
if i continueously hurt myself....

Should think other ways.........
that is so tired yo be continue..
in the end i only dun want to lose a friend...

that is my Valentine Wish~

i nvr ever want to be with he again.....
what i wish is...
juz be friend ...
is more easy ..but seem like hard to do...
is gam gai...

I understand...
if i nvr do at all...the problem cant solve~
i will try...

I also feel sorry~
the problem need more time to dissolve~

A party...

yesterday..
i went to Foo 's house...
loll..
really can't guess..
i juz know his house is beautiful...

espeacially the small wooden hall...
walao....
i have dream before...
almost same as my dream house...

i hope i can get a special house...
that hall is so fantastic..
when sit on the swing...
the wind blow against my face
huh....
so comfort...
if can look the rainbow
or the sun set more nice..
lol...
i hope have chance..
and i hope this is not juz a dream~~

huh...
finally wanna miss him..
but y??
i ad know, it is impossible...
really scare my feel will continue...
i can't the feel continue...
i know/..
i understand...

maybe 1 year meet..
the year will past...
and...
he won't come..
need him...is  impossible~~
let go jor...
ad gone,..
the love contain with dream
gone..is gone...

how to find back~????
no more~!!!!!


our dream house gone too..
how to build??
no confident ...
T.T

Celebrate my mum birthday...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO Mummy~ ~


为妈妈弄的红鸡蛋~ ~~ PERFECT.... 

 

OMG 肚子饿哦~ ~ 妈妈还没回~ ~

MINE

DAD



MUM

就是一个神秘的晚餐~ ~

哈哈...

一放学， 我和爸爸就去买东西了~

。。

有够好笑的...

我们要买的东西，

和买回来的东西是不同的~~

奇怪吖~ ~

哈哈....

我弄得晚餐。。

哈哈...

第一次弄给妈妈吃~

hehe...

although is first time prepare all this

...

they all say delicious leh..

haha...

fantastic....

be a housewife not easy...

these few weeks my mum start

working in factory

then housework no 1 do...

i'm the only child..

so... i will do it...

huh....

someone said have sister so trouble...

everytime will argue...

loll...

why she don't think

sister brother will accompanny us...

will listen to our trouble...

suddenly feel i need  sister  @ brother...

huh...

so bad!!!

everything is like that ...

alone is alone...

can't change~ ~

enough..so sad..

hehe..

after eating dinner...

haha..

the supper is prepared...

haha....

yeah....so tasty......

i love it.........

haha...

this i bought with my dad..

at first ..

we wanted bought cake...

then..

we saw this attracted donut..

then we juz went into the shop and

bought it jor...

after that...

we saw the cake shop...

haha../

i want eat cake suddenly...

but....

we nvr buy it..

>.<

 

wish my mum

healthy forever..

have a happy life!~