juzzzzz

I cant control myself to click in his profile juz now...

everytime i hurt myself only....

the crying feeling still will around!

i dont want tis feeling aa~!

i only want a friend!

i feel  the distance is my fault!

ZOO Trip....>> COUPLE feeling ~

 wah...when come back whole body
wet and smelly leh~ ~
unfortunately we go there
the sky "TI O O"
the rain fall only a while..
then the sun came out again..
but i and my 3rd sister walk along
the wet road..
by the way..we saw a sweet couple..

 

 The guy carry the girl walk along the wet street..

huh....romantic~

 at that time... my heart seem like want to

put down someone...and continue to my own life...

live more happy...coz i still believe ~

in Destiny...

can someone tell me what i believe izit true??/

only can believe ~ juz put down and wait...

Let me stay down alone ~ ~

HIPPO

long time nvr use this term...

miss this word...

is memorable only...

Juz now my 1st sister said

" dun use la..use the other pencil case la "

I know what am i doing...

understand ~

something  wont not come back..

i know....

actually i use only ..

i dont want purposely do something to

forget....

only want to keep the happy memory..

no others meaning..

SOMETIME....

the time will continue run..

my life will continue go on ~ ~

CALL ME >> KELLY LAM >>

ENJ0Y MY DAYS 1~

GALS DAY~

Really best...first time enjoy tour with Janet~

she almost play hide and seek with me

we r in the same popular...

we walked and search for reference book..

we spend 2 hours more only in the popular...

girls buy things r like that 1..

choose choose choose....

the finally can put all the things back and go away....

i'm the 1 ...i buy the things i will consider many many times..

but at last also nvr buy!

Today really a nice day...

no wonder only got 2 dollar, i can oso shopping and buy things

wakakak....

I'm poor enough...

no money n go shopping...

geng ar~!

haha...

I SHOULD THX Janet VERY VERY MUCH!

she is my Pemiutang...

luckily no faedah atas pinjaman!

hahah...

Popular offer leh!

20%

Oh......

i found the same types of motivation book!

i love it!!!!!!wakaka..

so happy!

Dont know when ...

i start to motivate myself by reading this types of book

Last time...i really not a book warm...

although i study...

the extra books i wont look for it oso...

But now...

slowly be affected...

i start to read more~

when i read...

have some feeling...

the feeling is...i'm only in my world...

is more lonely actually~

why?

i dun like lonely oso....

but i know i have to....

i ask myself to be mature...

coz a mature girl will do things well

can manage all the things...

i hope so......

I CAN BE MYSELF AGAIN..........................

I WANT BELIEVE...

I DUN WANT TO DREAM.............................

I SHOULD GO........

I WILL DO ANYTHINGS TO OPEN MY HAPPINESS DOOR!

STOP STRUGGLING IN THAT...........................

Juz want to know..

but that is no answer~

no meaning oso~

I will let it be...

if cant face it..i will off....

no matter is evading the problem or not...

i know i will feel pain...

how many days of the pain can recover.....

is depends how much the love is....

i'm not dare to try.....

i can really feel bleeding~

throughout bleeding~

the first day after 100 Days~

this morning ...
i woke...
the first thing is washing my shoes!
hahaah...
Kelly Lam is a independent girl~~
huhu...
^^

after i wash...
i beh tahan ///
i continue to do house work too...
sweep...mop..........
clean up again~~~

til 12.30pm
then i enjoy my bath!
yea
i love bath so so much...
one day at least 2 times~~

....
1.30 pm
that is my time~
know wat?
yea...watching watcing and watching!!!!
then eat my brunch~ ~

yummy leh!!!
woo.....


stay alone at house....
everytime like that...
my life is alone ~~
i feel it
but...
i wont closed my happiness door..
i still will maintain my mood..
although it is lonely..~

my living style should be changed~
i want to change myself too~

healthy oat milk~
my favourite~!

The 100 Days//

Last 4 days, actually i'm in 2 mind....
On Monday,the terrible cat made me feel dreadful...
it happens at a sudden...
can't control myself...
the stupid cat make my mood gone!
the feeling is like it encroached on me...
the fearful is in my heart...
but that time...i feel...i really feel alone~!

I remember the time when he accompany me...
be with he i no need to scare the cat will come near to me..
 he give me a "safe feeling"...

although ad past..
although all is changed...
I still count the days on.....
.........
actually i hope ..
hope the 100 of the day wont come.....
it means, i can put it down ..
no need to wait 100 days onward....

Today is the 100 days......
how??????
i count alone till 100 days.....
foolish right???
aizzzzz.....

i count and count.....
for what ????
i also dun know....

ON Thursday 10/3/2011...
my school had transmit some english songs..
coz of the English Day...
the song that is my favourate also be transmited...
< RIGHT HERE WAITING >
this song...only when i wait a person
i will do all the silly foolish things........


But ...now....
it comes to the 100 days....
i feel lonely and hopeless....

Juz now...
my sis and my best frenz....
go to K room singK...
some love song recall back my memory..
<  MINE > , < 2 is better than 1>,
< WHATAYA YOU WANT FROM ME >
all these english songs............
becoz of him ...last year i love to listen english songs...

this songs give me a great courage and
confident to love him...........

juz now i watch back the MV....
IS TOUCHing.

I trust what i believe in love be4 is the truth....
only that cant maintain is a obstacle of love.....
give up of the relation...i feel regret......
but no choice....
the next i cant predict but important is
to settle all the problems.......


the only ways is....
i will stop count...stop at the 100 day....
i will care...but the caring is juz a normal frenz care....

i'm consciously understand....
understand what is the things that i should do....
i should do my best..
become normal enough.....


A 100 Days....
the  heart  100 % bleed........
tears fall around...that is fine d....

I tell myslef the 100 day is the last!
no more but is juz a memory fairy-tale~ ~

3..2..1...tell myself to b ok!!!

his figure xxxxxx......it is going far far...more far...

No matter how strong the elastic of my cardiac muscle in my heart...



the feeling , the sorrow........is penetrated to my heart...


when in the quiet condition, it increase the kinectic energy,

increase the frequency of collision....Hence , the rate of reaction


for the hurt @ pain is higher!~ ~

 
 
Yesterday...
i  feel something be4...
i think back.....

i ask myself....
is that true or juz a dream???
how come i cant imagine that is like a fairy tale!
it was so amazing...no trouble...
really a comfortable relation....

that is ..
i miss the feeling.....
i feel that feeling a whole day...
till juz now.....


I still found that many things he did make me disappointed...
make my heart gone again......
it is really lost hope sometime...

Today my classmate sang some classic song...

every words they sang....
for me is painful ~
how to fix in that condition..
i dun know...
i juz sit aside quietly....
REALLY DUN WANT TO BOTHER!!!!!!

i said i'm ok.....
is ok...
but when silently calm down....
that feeling in heart is like a stone....
stuck in my heart~ ~ ~

when i saw his figure...
he is gone,..
gone far far away from me~!!!!

gone~～~～~ ~ ` `