The Last Day of 2010

what i want to conclude in this year???

really got happiness ..
the happiness for me is like a Fairy Tale....
a prince a princess in heaven~ ~
what is in the end?
hmmmm....
in my mind...have a word..  “算”
i mean....is ok...never mind....
really ...hmmm....
hope sooo....

what i hope is ....
want all of my friend to be happy and healhty....

3 hopes 2010...BEFORE....
1 >I want somebody to love and care me...
 hope 有情人终成眷属，wish all the people who in love
be happy and Happy ending...
2 > I told myself...must be a successful person...
      have a happy life.....
(THE LAST HOPE...SECRET...)

ermmmm....how many i succed to conclude////
the first 1....in 2010 ..
got somebody to care me and love d.....
but i really hope all the time got somebody to care me lo....
the 2nd....
i 'm not success ...i lost...i get lost...
my ambition...i can't see my way....
i need support...
the 3rd...
actually...
this is won't be achieve...
this hope...already 8 years...
won't come true~ ~~

2011...Next year..3 HOPES....
what i want again??/
1 > I want get a good and excellent result in SPM
coz i really really want to be a successful person...
i hope my way will be bright....with somebody help...

2 > 有情人终成眷属，wish all the people who in love

be happy and Happy ending...all people and my friends
in the world Happy..Have a HAPPY LIFE with all my friends....

3 > SAME ( SECRET)

I want that...i hope soo...
GOOD LUCK IN MY LIFE....

i hope my friend will happy with....

^^
i need some luck....
i need some care....
i need....
i'm sooo greedy...
hehe....
lastly.....
the world LOVE....
only can be stay in my memory...
cannot apear again....
i understand.....
comprehend...
I WANT FRIENDSSSSSSSSSSS....

FRIENDS....is the most important in my life....

wish all around the world peace...
and live happily....


BYE 2010...
BYE the past....
BYE to..........



can everything be ok??
i hope i can help people...
i wish other nvr stuck with some trouble...

i realize...
in our life all the things we do...
we will think ourself..
and...less or never think other....
ermm,....i think me too...
but i really hope i have a power..
GOOD LUCK...
。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

A Family...

My family...
KAMPAR^^





Today...steamboat day...
walaoo..
many food...and ...
today 30/12
姨丈birth...
sooo happy......
Later...we celebrate....

unlucky....
our grandma and grandpa not around ad...
aizzz...
pity hor....
hmmm...
i miss them.....

sooo warm loll...
haha...
we steamboat-ing many many timess..
i remember..
all of us....
play together...fun together...
sot together...
HAVE FUN on Chinese New Years...
heheh...

so excited..next year..
every year Chinese New Year is soo happy 1..
but...
start on next year...
Ah Gong and Ah Po..
hmmmm.....
really miss them aa~ ~ ~ ~
huuuuuuuuu..................

now......
still got some LONELY feeling..@@
alone ....
but ..got family warm...

Finally...we get ready to sing BIRTHDAY SONG...
^^

.....



and we watch this video..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N3TwZRyWb6w

...

When I find this video....

suddenly...

I feel.... despair...

I found that video...

I remember that day...

i want CRY~~

T.T

DON'T KNOW WHY I MISS.....

I can't....i really can't do that...

i told myself...

is ok....please forget ....

i forget the hurt...

how could i forget the happiness....

T.T

A ChristmAs Present。。A humdrum Life。。

something inside the HEART is hard to express...
I try to make it rationality...
means...look it by different situation...
different view....
I do it......

why i try it ?
i think it is because of a friend....

on Christmas...
my sis contact me....
we chat a lot...until midnight...
on that moment...i knew...i juz knew...
maybe it is so hurt....
i felt...... a  MISS....
missing a person...missing that feeling....
missing the way before...
missing myself.......
that is HURT......

when i lost these.....
i was lost myself...i don't know what to do....
I really no mood to laugh.....
no mood to study...
whether i watch drama...i also felt lonely...
because of a person.....

BY THE WAY...
NO ONE IS WRONG.....

No matter is important than friend...
it is true...
nothing is can't accept//
although the fact is hard ..is irony...
but the fact is fact....
can't be change.....

Otherwise...
my sis is true...
they said.
"why not you think it otherway....
let it be an experience...."
A fall in the pit....a gain in your wit..

it is pain.....
it is bitter...
it is suffering...


Some sadness ...hopeless...despair...
yup....the fact is so cruel !!
I can't pretend to be happy where i'm not///////
that moment i asked myself...
what can do? ? and....
that time i decided to be Friend .......
because of i want both happy....
now...why not to be happy...and congrate them?
i feel....and i guest....that is true...
THAT IS THE FACT......

i try to calm down....
I think that is enough to me.....
I'm not pretend anymore...
really is LONELY ....
but that is ....
MY WAY...
I have my way....
I can ........

That is my Christmas Present
> A FACT <
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yesterday i watch 阿贤(AXIEN)...in Astro..
http://www.axian.my/component/flexicontent/item/31

he untroduce many delicious dish...
He visit an old person, who is selling herb tea..
it was so touch....
when he asked the old person:

" how many year you sell this at here?"
" 58 years..my dad is a herb doctor..
my husband ad pass away 20 years (she start cry).."
" why still continue this business..it is easy?"
" my husbad stood at here...we sold herb tea togeher everyday before...
we have 8 children.....i follow my dad recipe..
i use more than 20 types ofherb "
" selling herb tea only can only earn a little bit money...why..."
" we juz want to survive..although we lead a humdrum life...."


after.. this...
my mind "comes out" ...
i agree with the anchorman....
he said..
一苦一甜的组合，用来比喻有甜必有苦、
有苦必有甜的人生过程最适合不过，先来一杯苦茶，
学习不怕吃苦的精神，再来一口甜茶润喉，
这就是苦茶苦尽甘来的真谛。

when we try....
bitter or sweet juz a "cloud and mist" （云烟）
or juz say that like a rainbow...
how rainbow will form?
after rain... the rainbow will form colourful...
After suffer ...Life will have a shine......

LIFE IS JUST LIKE A CUP OF HERB TEA....
It is bitter....after the bitter..can drink other sweet tea....
nothing is can't be done!

I so admire that old person who is selling herb tea...
she sold the herb tea is for survive..
she is actually suffering...
but she still continue these business
although the profit is low~


I Learn
A Humdrum Life......
also can live HAPPILY~
。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

开朗~look happy~FRIENDSHIP~!

I FIND MYSELF

I'M KELLY LAM

this 2 bird....

maybe is couple~

so match......

they know i take photo...

after i took they fly away....

smart!!!hahaha/....

Many people said...eat ice- cream will be happy...

I ate.......well....if you want to be happy...

no need to do anythings you will be happy...

if can don't bother about...leave it behind....

both will live happily~



Ice cream........i love ice-cream...

yeah!!!!

haha....

Today i know....

I want both happy..

won't bother before...

haha...

Finally i feel some classic songs so powerful

got heart ~ ~

haha...^^

listen some....good...= =

haha...happy~

some....a bit...classic...not mean out of date.....

actually...

it can make you happy...

Out of date also will be happy~

Although juz only a word "support".......

that is enough....Adequate ...

yup........

THANKS ^^

I know you all are so concern me ~

you all are my everything....

MY FRIENDS..^^

FOREVER....

ermm....maybe many things can't be continue...

won't forever...not permenent...

but friendship is excepted....

only FRIEND ....can be continue...

These is my way.........i need FRIEND ~

look and shout...

2 day in Penang...
finally have a rest///////

I shout loudly.......
I want forget...........
WHEN I SHOUT...
the peculiar feeling........
don't know how to describe.....
i want forget.....
but i forget the bad....
all the happiness comes out in my mind...
i feel so comfort!!

well...maybe that is good too...
i won't feel hate.........
but that is bad too..
i can't really forget...
i will more hurt~ ~

how to face my fate????
that is so silly....
want forget but i can't....
how can i like that...

EVERYTIME I MISS ...
my heart pain~ ~
EVERTIME I THINK ABOUT ....
my tears drop....
sometime i would rather i lie myself...
then my heart won't pain .....

these days i at Kampar...
I dream .........
my dream so strange...
with the feeling.....
hmmmm~ ~
become stranger...
awful  !!!!!
why??????

SAD~ I want Cry ~
LONELY ~ I want some caring~

Penang Trip 2 Dayss....

wooooowww.......
1,2,3.....
6 Person Family Trip....

A lot of Fun........
wah...
we used 3Hours more to find hotel...
lolll.....
Soooo expensive...
Finally we book the hotel at Penang Town....
@@ no sea view...only road view...
aizzzz...

so the first day...we juz go Batu Kawan having

our Brunch..........

at night walk "Wan Zai Kok"

 

After walk along.....I looked at the sea view....It is dark...

I shout.....huuhhhhhhhhh.........
it was best.....

we back to Hotel...
Have a rest.........

20/12
 huhu.....the next day~ ~
walaooo...
walked a whole day....
sooooo tired leh!

walk up the KEK LOK SI
go to pray....
we spent 3Hours.....
soooo tired......
hahah....but many many thingss....

Look...

Me>>

My dad and me





Dad And Mum

My pretty mum..>>

Dad and Mum

阿姨 、表妹、我^^



阿姨.和爸爸妈妈



Everning ..is ME...

HAHA...
I like Evening ...
and I wait my morning...
>.<
who will be morning leh??
haha..^^

today arh...the sui dog kiss my ‘屁股'
so scare loll...
it thought i play with it!!
so yong sui!!!


walao..today i listen many many time 《她说》
so nice...
if a pair of couple can listen to each other and understanding
more ...hmm..then so good...
a bit 感触...haha..
everytime i look at the my mum and dad wedding picture...
huu..i know they so bahagia...

every love ending is get married...
a wedding party ...
play the bridge...
sooo funny ~

if the day comes..
hehe,...
DREAM tim~ ~
stop dream luu...

Ahh..change topic...

yeah.... Finally go Penang....
everytime go there ...i feel happy..
coz??
have kite to play...
i wanna play it....
I love sit beside the sea side...
the lonely feeling....
hehe..actually i dun like lonely loll..
but...
when feel sad...despair...
i like quitely...alone ..
sit beside the sea side...
the wind blow...against my face....
《听海》

many many 心事........
i try to keep lol..
i won't tell...i don't want affect other...
these day i love alone....

I'm Miss lonely Evening...^ ^

说了再见

刚才去唱了《说了再见》~
也喊了 《没关系》~

心情应该放掉~
但却没力~
这几个星期我都很迟很迟睡
我失眠~ 甚至半夜惊醒~
怎么了？
说了再见~ ~还想怎样？
T.T


天亮了 雨下了 你走了

清楚了 我爱的 遗失了
落叶飘在湖面上睡着了
想要放 放不掉 泪在飘
你看看 你看看 不到
我假装过去不重要 却发现自己办不到




说了再见 才发现再也见不到
我不能就这样失去你的微笑
口红待在桌脚 而你我找不到
若角色对调 你说好不好




说了再见 才发现再也见不到
能不能就这样忍着痛泪不掉
说好陪我到老 永恒往哪里找
再次拥抱一分一秒都好


你的笑 你的好 脑海里 一直在绕
我的手 忘不了 你手的温度
心碎了一地 捡不回 从前的心跳　
伤心过去 我无力逃跑




说再见 才发现再也见不到
能不能就这样忍着痛泪不掉
说好陪我到老 永恒往哪里找
再次拥抱一分一秒都好





This is it...
out of my control...
when we do anythings we will have an aim....
Now i lost an aim in my life...
maybe that is a part of my aim...
but not means not important...
before that this aim is beauty...
and i nvr thought this aim will came ...
how to continue??
i don't know..
what can i do..??
i don't know...
the aim juz come awhile that i already treAsure..
Dream won't came again ...
That is enough too........
Depends on...rely on...
NO .....
i can't do ////
DESTINY...***

THIS IS ENDING IN MY LIFE.......

樱花树下~ ~

才是幸福的抉择~
过去就让它过去~ 不要想了~

我 在 此刻 画上 句点~

不再发 没结果 的梦~
最后三个字 ~

没 关 系 。。。

16 号

刚刚去饯行~
去唱K....发泄了~
呵呵..
喉咙干干~ ~

过了今天我就不在KL了~

有很多心事写出来会好过点的哦？

hmmmm....现在我不懂要写什么了~

我和他们说林雯仪不在了~
“真正的雯仪心死了...我叫仪雯林Evening...
我是一只灵魂，我是用了林雯仪的肉身~”

haha...
或许这样的我~ 会好过点~

我都不知~我这次决定回金宝直到开学~
人的生命很难说的~
这秒活..下秒不知道会发生什么事的~

人生最悲哀的事~我觉得是“时间不能从来”
命名中注定的又何能改变叻~
做人没做亏心事..
走得正站得正...
就不会后悔的~ ~

每个人都会有弱点~

不过我没力了 ~
我知大家都认为我是很看得开~
就 看得开......
事实上我是个软弱的人~
很多事其他人都不会懂....

**多的事,你不知道的事
《你不知道的事》

14号~

现在 5 点~
下午了...
大姐突然打来说要来我家~
walao...我家那么远~ ~
好surprise 叻~ ~
哈哈 ...
她昨天才从PENANG 回来~
yeah 见到她了~ ~

值得开心哦。。。
在开心当而~
我看到一张令我很心痛很心痛的照片~

这次不是我故意开profile 看到的~ ~
是突然发现~

都不关我事~ 还做么~
他想怎样就怎样~
好啦~

衷心祝福~

痛了再痛~
撒盐在伤口~

一个开心~ 一个愁~
很难顶~
T.T

13号 晴

深夜了~

眼光光~到天光~

我今天做了很多没意义的事吖~
我答应过自己以后都不做的~

林雯仪啊~林雯仪~

怎么你那么没用~ ~

我都不知为什么次次都有冲动的~

哎~以前以前又是那！

loll....13 号啦..就快开学~
死啦~
那么多东西~SPM....想起我就头痛~

都不懂最近做么~

倒霉~“黑仔”

整天痛~ ~
不是头痛就胃痛
老jor...没用...haha...^^

算吧 ~
除了说这句...我所讲的都没意义~
原来 闷...寂寞...有人陪伴是最好的~

最近....我不算好~

可是应该自足？

我的三姐说得对~
等咯~哈哈...原来她和我一样相信缘份~
哈哈~ ~

看见那么多人关心我~
真的谢谢他们~
^ ^

最近我一直都不敢sms 他们...
我知道他们和我一样烦~
可是有寂寞感~ 想找人聊天~
哎~ 独生女 真cham！

外面的人个个都讲我...
“独生女几好~有东西没人争...
你不sienz 的meh？ 要努力读书吖~你阿妈生jor你
真是好...你那乖~ accoutant 好吖..以后大把机会..很易
找工做的~ 不用担心啦..16岁..以后还有很长的路”

我听jor...心酸~
因为我知道..我必须要承受所有...
是一个人承受~
没兄弟姊妹在家~ 是很静很静的...
我最不喜欢静~
但是偏偏就是留给我寂寞和孤独感~
我一定要有责任心~ ~
没得冤的~ 剩下的 只有我一个都不可以放弃~
还要养 我爸爸妈妈~

说到 寂寞感 ~
我有一班姊妹和好友~他们都对我好好吖~
有什么事他们会关心我~
我们还说长大后一起生活 一起住~
哈哈....不知有没有可能叻？？
真是期待哦~ ~一定很开心~
这几天我不敢sms 他们~

大姐--在伤心又烦..如果sms她，只会把我的伤感伤到她..
我又不知如何安慰她....

二姐--在热恋叻..哈哈..又做工哦~ 我知道她一定很累..
有我二姐夫哈哈..累也值得咯~

三姐--在忙做工~她..哈哈她整天都听我说~开解我..
她整天说的笑话~让我开心~只不过..难道要天天sms 她嘛..
我知道她好人~可是..不想烦到她..有必要我才找她~

哥-- 他在烦爱情的 ~真希望大嫂会想~ 祝他们和好如初~
我的哥哥..哈哈~有他真好~他的鼓励~谢谢~

好友们 --有他们~说的笑话~我不会伤心难过....
哈哈~ 我变得开朗~ 学习成长~

可说是有他们全部真好~
hmm..我知道他们都忙的~
我真的不敢打扰他们哦~
我还是必须学习在孤单和开心
找个平衡点~ 生活才会过得精彩~ ~


真的一个人~那种感觉hmm..
16 年怎样都要习惯的~
我想 习惯就好~
我也不想他们再为我担心~ ^^
真的真的谢谢他们！




添加图片(大姐) - purple colour (二姐) - green colour

(三姐) - yellow colour (我) - red colour

(哥) - elephant >.<

说明



双仪~哈哈..二姐~要幸福哦~

大姐~不要伤心~我们一起渡过~

三姐..有事我必定找你~^ ^我们一起等待。

哥，要甜蜜蜜哦~
哈哈..你也行的..十朴你~

好友~你们的安慰~我会的..
我知道..be happy..haha..





我没放弃~ 哈哈。。你们所说的我都懂~我明白吖~

有那么多亲情...他们给我感觉到家庭温暖~

姊妹情 兄妹情 友情.....

虽然在家一个人....想起她们全部...暖暖的感觉来了...

哈哈~

是寂寞的...天意如此没变咯~

我接受~

甜的吃，苦的也要吃...

苦中一点天

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天晴~心情

huuu...
In this morning...i need to tuition...~
I not in mood...
when i open the window...
i look out......
it was so sunny @@
so comfort....
Now..the sun shine is shinning my room..^^
I start miss him again....

hahaha...
i listen < MINE > in HITZ FM...
huu.....

9dayss...
i get stuck ~
how can i do that....
i'm not brave ad~
我没勇气面对~
所以 我 再不想去想...
IF the FEELING still alive...memory wanna comes out..
juz let me think awhile....

I scare to wait....
but i scare he will reject me too....

for Love I will follow feeling to do any decision loll...
how is my LOVE FATE??
nobody knows right....
i'm in my full mind~

THIS SETBACK SOBERED ME DOWN...

i read back many of the msg...
make me feel happily...
but that is past~
that is my sweetest memory...
I will only keep it quietly
。。。。。。。。。。。。。。
我想过快乐自由的生活~
更希望 能和他从新开始，

做最好的朋友~

曾经已过去~

what is gone doesn't matter...

in front still got a long long way to go~

Although i can't see it now...In my heart i don't mind...

HAPPILY LIFE...

Dreaming ....at a SUDDEN....

I don't know why i will feel like that,
I scare..really really scare....
my mind can't stop thinking....why?
why at a sudden?
just only that? i mind?
T.T
after that i cry...
I don't understand....

really no mood.......
my ah yi comes ad...
they all ask me to do this do that...

我心已经很乱....
很没心情的同时...
我爸爸骂我.....
"整天脸黑黑....不要给她出去...."

what they say i ad no mood to listen...
don't want to know.....
and i juz calm down....dreaming......

now i blogg-ing......
i lost control....i don't know why suddenly like that....
sleeping  will better??
i sneeze.......
MISS YOU....
T.T...


at this moment.....
i don't know what meaning is that.......
i not dare to know.......
i can't do nothing....
i really really scare........
i need time~


Am i tough??

I need you??
I miss you??

。。。。。HOPE FINALLY。。。。。。。