A ChristmAs Present。。A humdrum Life。。

something inside the HEART is hard to express...
I try to make it rationality...
means...look it by different situation...
different view....
I do it......

why i try it ?
i think it is because of a friend....

on Christmas...
my sis contact me....
we chat a lot...until midnight...
on that moment...i knew...i juz knew...
maybe it is so hurt....
i felt...... a  MISS....
missing a person...missing that feeling....
missing the way before...
missing myself.......
that is HURT......

when i lost these.....
i was lost myself...i don't know what to do....
I really no mood to laugh.....
no mood to study...
whether i watch drama...i also felt lonely...
because of a person.....

BY THE WAY...
NO ONE IS WRONG.....

No matter is important than friend...
it is true...
nothing is can't accept//
although the fact is hard ..is irony...
but the fact is fact....
can't be change.....

Otherwise...
my sis is true...
they said.
"why not you think it otherway....
let it be an experience...."
A fall in the pit....a gain in your wit..

it is pain.....
it is bitter...
it is suffering...


Some sadness ...hopeless...despair...
yup....the fact is so cruel !!
I can't pretend to be happy where i'm not///////
that moment i asked myself...
what can do? ? and....
that time i decided to be Friend .......
because of i want both happy....
now...why not to be happy...and congrate them?
i feel....and i guest....that is true...
THAT IS THE FACT......

i try to calm down....
I think that is enough to me.....
I'm not pretend anymore...
really is LONELY ....
but that is ....
MY WAY...
I have my way....
I can ........

That is my Christmas Present
> A FACT <
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yesterday i watch 阿贤(AXIEN)...in Astro..
http://www.axian.my/component/flexicontent/item/31

he untroduce many delicious dish...
He visit an old person, who is selling herb tea..
it was so touch....
when he asked the old person:

" how many year you sell this at here?"
" 58 years..my dad is a herb doctor..
my husband ad pass away 20 years (she start cry).."
" why still continue this business..it is easy?"
" my husbad stood at here...we sold herb tea togeher everyday before...
we have 8 children.....i follow my dad recipe..
i use more than 20 types ofherb "
" selling herb tea only can only earn a little bit money...why..."
" we juz want to survive..although we lead a humdrum life...."


after.. this...
my mind "comes out" ...
i agree with the anchorman....
he said..
一苦一甜的组合，用来比喻有甜必有苦、
有苦必有甜的人生过程最适合不过，先来一杯苦茶，
学习不怕吃苦的精神，再来一口甜茶润喉，
这就是苦茶苦尽甘来的真谛。

when we try....
bitter or sweet juz a "cloud and mist" （云烟）
or juz say that like a rainbow...
how rainbow will form?
after rain... the rainbow will form colourful...
After suffer ...Life will have a shine......

LIFE IS JUST LIKE A CUP OF HERB TEA....
It is bitter....after the bitter..can drink other sweet tea....
nothing is can't be done!

I so admire that old person who is selling herb tea...
she sold the herb tea is for survive..
she is actually suffering...
but she still continue these business
although the profit is low~


I Learn
A Humdrum Life......
also can live HAPPILY~
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