Valentine Day

what expresison i should have???
sad? emo? lonely?
happy?  enjoy?
searching ??

almost 3 months...
i have been emo ,
sad enough, cry..
feel lost..cant control..

Maybe 1st time...
and i also want to end up all this..
dun want to try...
juz keep..
to be strong..i can~

I should believe before...
but i nvr do that...
i so silly...

Many question i nvr ask
i know if i ask
the answer is 50% hurt again...
i dun know i can survive or not
if i continueously hurt myself....

Should think other ways.........
that is so tired yo be continue..
in the end i only dun want to lose a friend...

that is my Valentine Wish~

i nvr ever want to be with he again.....
what i wish is...
juz be friend ...
is more easy ..but seem like hard to do...
is gam gai...

I understand...
if i nvr do at all...the problem cant solve~
i will try...

I also feel sorry~
the problem need more time to dissolve~