The ways ..the different~the choice the hopes.. the disappointed~

Guess I'd rather hurt than feel nothing at all~

That day i stay back~

I `m tired so i gone out from library and
walked along the corridor~
i reach the end of the corridor~
that is face to the canteen~

i looked down from 3rd floor~
i saw
the way at the canteen~...
beside the canteen have a pusat cuaca.....

the have the  two side way...
at  that time ...
i `m thinking~~

At first~
the two way are not join~
they are two different way~..
but if walk along to that..
we will realise that..
it can be join..and go to the same way~
different~but same~


Next,
when i look and think deeply...
the way not only there~`~
the 2 different way~
if  not walk along there..
2 different..
they  will different also~~
the fact is "different"........

In our life~
different will be same way at the same time~depends on...
what u choose  and how u choose it
in ur life~


2 different~will ever  different also~
what u are ..that is it~~
it not everyone fault~
only ... the fact~~
will it change~??
i don`t know~```

.........
but i know~
we have a choice~

Everytime i look out phenomena...
that have many things we won't know~
we will get what ~ we also don't know!
hence our feeling are~~~~
very confuse~~
Many feelings... I hurt before..
I alone~
I try to secrete and keep it in my mind~
I don't want make anyone sad ..
I hope they will happy everytime~

Before that i wanna forget..
i wanna to stop the feeling~
i`m actually upset and i feel apart of my life is gone~
but i try that all also~
I realise~and i don't want to lie myself~

Sometime~
when u hope fully want a thing...
that will not come to you~
but in a contrary~
when we go away~
when we leave~
when we not hope~
it will come with a surprise~
~~~

I scare for hope anythingss~
I knOw~
when i really hope ...
more disappointed i will get!

deep and deep i suck in~
more and more hurt..i get~

something is not belong to you~
that `s not yours~
Not suitable y not let it go ?

two  different is different~
although it will be the same...

Impossible~~ will hard to be posibble~

It will make the problem~

GAME OVER~.............

I don't know i need that feeling again or not..

but i will try not to lie myself again and again~...........

MAYBE NOT NEED YOU NOW

BUT..

NEED YOU IN THE OTHER SECOND~
OR
Maybe that`s not for me。。

Need to go~but not stay~
Need to think but not do`~
I think that's enough~~
if not more hurt i will get~